But the part that really hit home for me was how she was talking about how insecure she is, and how none of the benefits of being a model make her all that happy.
I don't put this out there very often because it's hard to talk about (if you ask me about it in person, I will start crying and I don't know why, so please don't) and I don't like considering it part of my identity, especially since it's pretty well-resolved at this point, but I struggled with disordered eating in college. I was never alarmingly small unless you were family or friends who'd known me for awhile, but I was pretty slender. And to be honest with you, I liked having that body. Wouldn't mind having it now.
Flash forward to now, I am about 30 pounds heavier than I was back then. It's enough to put me one or two pounds into the "overweight" range (which I am working on, in a healthy way). And you know what? There is no point in all of my almost-29 years in which I could say that I am happier than I am right now.
Get secure in your own skin. Develop a skill you can be proud of. Spend time around people who are positive. You probably don't look like a model, because few of us do, but that's more than ok. Getting prettier (or skinnier) won't make you happy, but developing yourself into someone you genuinely like will.
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